After moving out during a pandemic and renovating our first home life was finally where I wanted it to be, my partner of 6 years feel pregnant in January which was a complete shock and I didn't know how to deal with it. I couldn't cope with the idea but a few weeks went by and I was onboard. Unfortunately we had a miscarriage at 8 weeks which I've been dealing with the guilt and grief that I wasn't sure if I wasn't ready. I had to be strong for my partner but I had to battle my own deamons at the same time along with seeing a therapist. My partner now wants to start trying again but I have been on such a emotional and mental rollercoaster and finally feel like I have come out the other side I do not want those wounds to open again. I picture my life and kids with this women but the past 8 months were the most difficult of my life. Should I be scared of trying again.