Hi All,
I find it hard to open up about my feelings. A common thread I'm sure with most men. We are conditioned to be strong and avoid our emotions. Yesterday, on our eight week scan they revealed that the embryo had stopped growing after 6 weeks and that there is no heartbeat. I didn't know how to react. Denial was my first reaction. Perhaps, they got it wrong. After all, all the pregnancy symptoms were there. I watched my girlfriend face go from excitement to disappointment that day. Our dream was crushed. Getting overexcited so early on in the pregnancy probably seems foolhardy but the idea had grown on me. I couldn't help but notice all the Dads in the world with their kids and getting excited when I would get my chance. After the reveal of the miscarriage I was numb. I just wanted to sleep it off. And the next day (which is today) I feel odd. I feel nauseous, a little hazy. I'm currently sitting down at work without any care about my work. It all seems pointless. Am I heartbroken? Depressed? Or simply overreacting? I keep this all from my girlfriend as I know the pain she will be going through I could never understand. Sorry if I am rabbiting on. I just needed to vent.
Venting is essential and let it all out!