My partner and I suffered a miscarriage around 9 weeks. It was something that I felt could never happen to me as we already have 2 children and neither were planned so I was ignorant.
I've never spoke to my partner about this as I've always been someone to just shut off my feelings but I'm starting to really struggle.
My partner is now pregnant again and I can't believe it. It's something I'm struggling to accept. I'm just telling myself I'll only believe it when the baby arrives because I can't suffer as much as I did when we had a miscarriage earlier in the year. I've only touched her belly once and it was followed by a dream/flashback to the night we found out she had lost the baby. I don't even know how far gone she is right now. I'm essentially ignoring the pregnancy which I know isn;'t healthy and my partner is growing more concerned for me too.
Is this normal? Has anyone else experienced this before? I don't know what to do. I'm scared that when my daughter arrives that I won't accept her like I did with my other children. Perhaps my feelings are more extreme at the moment as our baby was due to arrive on the 21st August, in 5 days.