I'm a 42 yr old man and I'll give you a little background so you can judge before you leave with your help later. At 24 I became addicted to heroin and at 26 I my daughter was born in that years October. In January of 2007 which would be 3 months later I did a rapid detox. That was mentally and physically the hardest thing in my life until the 3rd April 2023. I have lived away and I hope since that time a life for my daughter. I started a relationship with the one person I had known and loved for 25 years only recently. She is an amazing mother and a beautiful person. At 20 weeks we lost her and nothing in my life has prepared me for this onslaught of emotions. I feel selfish even now making this about me. I don't expect anyone to understand the mental capacity you need to succeed in what I did previously but I hope everyone understands that this is breaking me in ways that are not close to comparable. I don't have suicidal thoughts but I do think I have failed enough to accept death. I don't want to self destruct! Please help if you can. Thank you in advance.