Hello, my name is Martin and myself and my partner suffered the loss of our pregnancy on the 4th of November 2019.
I have always been a private person and tried to deal with my own struggles without having to burden anybody else with my problems. This has been to the detriment of both my own health and relationships with others, partly down to a previous relationship where opening up once led to me being belittled and made to feel like my.
I know this now and I know I need to talk or even just write to get things out.
Recently had an argument with my partner which was wholly my fault for not being honest and lying about something that I should have just been open about. This has made me realize that she deserves the same openness back from me on who I am and how I feel as she has always given to me.
We have recently been speaking about the miscarriage and I've been extremely emotional with it as I haven't taken the time to process the loss at all. My partner said that she felt I was being fake and trying to manipulate her because of our very recent argument, this I can understand given the situation.
Anyway I'm off on a tangent, I have joined and posted here to try and have an outlet as I now don't know if I can talk to my partner about this at the moment.
Is there any methods that have helped others or any techniques that people have found helped?
Happy to talk to anybody about this as I'm getting close to breaking point