A personal poem from a place of grief

Here are some extracts from a poem I wrote to help me grieve the loss of our unborn child 3 years ago

Light of Day/Days of Light

You never saw the light of day...

... I love you my child

Though your existence is one I can't grasp

Yet

Never were you a product

You were alive

Though I can't access you

Eat with you

Laugh with you

And teach you like I do your lovely siblings

One day it hit me and have never been the same again

Though you can't come to me

One day I will go to you

When the time is right

(Though time is never ours to own)

You taught me that

I won't find you in your mother anymore

Nor in ornaments

Nor in flowers

Nor in any other living thing

I won't find you on the edge of suicide

That was an illusion, a delusion

The idea I entertained, a dark place never explored though seemed the only way to go...

Now I spends my days in the light

Thank you my child...