Kevin, you're absolutely not alone. You might find that there are a lot of us out there who are feeling exactly the same thing. I won't go into my loss because it has now been almost 12 years. I actually came away from it without scarring, because it was 2 months in and the pregnancy/miscarriage caught my wife and me totally by surprise. The thing I desperately needed help with was knowing how to be a better partner to my wife. I was a miserable failure there and I still regret that. I wish I had known then how common miscarriages are and that I could have spoken to my parents (who are still kicking) and to my closest brother. Found out later that he and his wife had struggled forever to have a kid and they finally were blessed with a boy.