My wife and I lost our child at 12 weeks, about a month ago. It has been a terrible journey so far. We had a very traumatic experience at a hospital, we went due to the pain from the medicine to endure labor at 11 pm. We weren't seen till around 2am, she went to change because there was a lot of blood and when she went to change her pants we saw that she'd passed the fetus. I went into the restroom to check on her and saw what had happened. I cleaned her up and got her back to the room. I ended up having to remove our child from her pants and sit in the empty restroom holding my child till I could wave down a nurse.
I went to work that morning and had to pretend nothing happened, I haven't been able to talk about it mostly because I don't know what to say. My wife has been dealing with it as best as she can but it's so hard on her. It's gotten to the point where when we talk I feel terrible and start to cry and within a minute I feel nothing, no sadness or anger, just nothing. I just can't cry anymore. I've pushed her to reach out to people that understand more than I do, and she has. This is my first time talking about this with anyone other than family.