Me and my partner always wanted a child of our own, we both went through horrible realationships where we both have children in. We found out we was expecting around 3 months ago. On Monday we noticed a bruise on her belly button and she was in pain. ( we put this down to the flu as she had been coughing for a week or so) I called the doctor and they admitted her to hospital but whilst there they did tests and a ultrasound scan but this was done in A.E nothing was said but we were discharged later that evening. We was told we would need to be seen by early pregnancy clinic but just for a check up. Went in on Thursday to be told the reason we was there was to confirm there was no heartbeat. This was confirmed. I understand we was only 11 weeks but I feel so upset I can’t even cry when I want to I seem to stop myself but seeing my partner go through this is killing me. I’m so angry with the hospital I’m angry at myself cause I don’t seem to show emotion. How do I just grieve. But my head just says it’s only 11 weeks but it’s still my baby. How do I let it all out. I feel silly grieving because I’m worried people will say it don’t matter it’s not fully formerd ect. But in my eyes my baby was my baby i saw their heartbeat 2 weeks ago now it’s gone. I’m so upset but want to be strong.
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